Saturday, March 3, 2018

March 3: Ragged Elijah, Searching for Meaning, Maybe Poetic

"Shipmates, have ye shipped in that ship?"
Queequeg and I had just left the Pequod, and were sauntering from the water, for the moment each occupied with his own thoughts, when the above words were put to us by a stranger, who, pausing before us, levelled his massive forefinger at the vessel in question. He was but shabbily apparelled in faded jacket and patched trowsers; a rag of a black handkerchief investing his neck. A confluent smallpox had in all directions flowed over his face, and left it like the complicated ribbed bed of a torrent, when the rushing waters have been dried up.
"Have ye shipped in her?" he repeated.
"You mean the ship Pequod, I suppose," said I, trying to gain a little more time for an uninterrupted look at him.
"Aye, the Pequod- that ship there," he said, drawing back his whole arm and then rapidly shoving it straight out from him-, with the fixed bayonet of his pointed finger darted full at the object.
"Yes," said I, "we have just signed the articles."
"Anything down there about your souls?"
"About what?"
"Oh, perhaps you hav'n't got any," he said quickly. "No matter though, I know many chaps that hav'n't got any,- good luck to 'em; and they are all the better off for it. A soul's a sort of a fifth wheel to a wagon."
"What are you jabbering about, shipmate?" said I.
"He's got enough, though, to make up for all deficiencies of that sort in other chaps," abruptly said the stranger, placing a nervous emphasis upon the word he.
"Queequeg," said I, "let's go; this fellow has broken loose from somewhere; he's talking about something and somebody we don't know."
"Stop!" cried the stranger. "Ye said true- ye hav'n't seen Old Thunder yet, have ye?"
"Who's Old Thunder?" said I, again riveted with the insane earnestness of his manner.
"Captain Ahab."
"What! the captain of our ship, the Pequod?"
"Aye, among some of us old sailor chaps, he goes by that name. Ye hav'n't seen him yet, have ye?"
"No, we hav'n't. He's sick they say, but is getting better, and will be all right again before long."
"All right again before long!" laughed the stranger, with a solemnly derisive sort of laugh. "Look ye; when Captain Ahab is all right, then this left arm of mine will be all right; not before."
"What do you know about him?"
"What did they tell you about him? Say that!"
"They didn't tell much of anything about him; only I've heard that he's a good whale-hunter, and a good captain to his crew."
"That's true, that's true- yes, both true enough. But you must jump when he gives an order. Step and growl; growl and go- that's the word with Captain Ahab. But nothing about that thing that happened to him off Cape Horn, long ago, when he lay like dead for three days and nights; nothing about that deadly skrimmage with the Spaniard afore the altar in Santa?- heard nothing about that, eh? Nothing about the silver calabash he spat into? And nothing about his losing his leg last voyage, according to the prophecy. Didn't ye hear a word about them matters and something more, eh? No, I don't think ye did; how could ye? Who knows it? Not all Nantucket, I guess. But hows'ever, mayhap, ye've heard tell about the leg, and how he lost it; aye, ye have heard of that, I dare say. Oh, yes, that every one knows a'most- I mean they know he's only one leg; and that a parmacetti took the other off."
"My friend," said I, "what all this gibberish of yours is about, I don't know, and I don't much care; for it seems to me that you must be a little damaged in the head. But if you are speaking of Captain Ahab, of that ship there, the Pequod, then let me tell you, that I know all about the loss of his leg."
"All about it, eh- sure you do? all?
"Pretty sure."
With finger pointed and eye levelled at the Pequod, the beggar-like stranger stood a moment, as if in a troubled reverie; then starting a little, turned and said:- "Ye've shipped, have ye? Names down on the papers? Well, well, what's signed, is signed; and what's to be, will be; and then again, perhaps it won't be, after all. Any how, it's all fixed and arranged already; and some sailors or other must go with him, I suppose; as well these as any other men, God pity 'em! Morning to ye, shipmates, morning; the ineffable heavens bless ye; I'm sorry I stopped ye."
"Look here, friend," said I, "if you have anything important to tell us, out with it; but if you are only trying to bamboozle us, you are mistaken in your game; that's all I have to say."
"And it's said very well, and I like to hear a chap talk up that way; you are just the man for him- the likes of ye. Morning to ye, shipmates, morning! Oh! when ye get there, tell 'em I've concluded not to make one of 'em."
"Ah, my dear fellow, you can't fool us that way- you can't fool us. It is the easiest thing in the world for a man to look as if he had a great secret in him."
"Morning to ye, shipmates, morning."
"Morning it is," said I. "Come along, Queequeg, let's leave this crazy man. But stop, tell me your name, will you?"
"Elijah."
Elijah! thought I, and we walked away, both commenting, after each other's fashion, upon this ragged old sailor; and agreed that he was nothing but a humbug, trying to be a bugbear. But we had not gone perhaps above a hundred yards, when chancing to turn a corner, and looking back as I did so, who should be seen but Elijah following us, though at a distance. Somehow, the sight of him struck me so, that I said nothing to Queequeg of his being behind, but passed on with my comrade, anxious to see whether the stranger would turn the same corner that we did. He did; and then it seemed to me that he was dogging us, but with what intent I could not for the life of me imagine. This circumstance, coupled with his ambiguous, half-hinting, half-revealing, shrouded sort of talk, now begat in me all kinds of vague wonderments and half-apprehensions, and all connected with the Pequod; and Captain Ahab; and the leg he had lost; and the Cape Horn fit; and the silver calabash; and what Captain Peleg had said of him, when I left the ship the day previous; and the prediction of the squaw Tistig; and the voyage we had bound ourselves to sail; and a hundred other shadowy things.
I was resolved to satisfy myself whether this ragged Elijah was really dogging us or not, and with that intent crossed the way with Queequeg, and on that side of it retraced our steps. But Elijah passed on, without seeming to notice us. This relieved me; and once more, and finally as it seemed to me, I pronounced him in my heart, a humbug.

It is a strange morning.  Usually, I spend the a.m. of Saturday at McDonald's with my wife, son, and sister.  However, today, because of my other sister's hospitalization, I find myself pretty much by myself with my son.  He is on his laptop.  I am on mine.  Think of us as Ishmael and Queequeg walking through the streets of Nantucket together, having just signed on to the Pequod.

Ishmael's encounter with ragged Elijah takes on more weight, once you get further into the novel.  In the Bible, Elijah was a prophet who lived during the bloody reign of King Ahab in Israel.  The Biblical Elijah performed miracles, raised the dead, and foretold the future.  His name is invoked in various Jewish celebrations, including Passover.

I'm not sure if Ishmael is aware of all of this.  However, his conversation with ragged Elijah is certainly discomfiting.  Enough to make Ishmael more than a little paranoid.  Eventually, Ishmael pronounces Elijah to be a "humbug," but the encounter is enough to cast a cloud over the day.  Like me, Ishmael is having a strange morning.

After I'm done blogging, I plan on taking my kids to the hospital to see their aunt.  It won't be a long visit.  My sister is still pretty weak and tired.  She didn't even speak to me last night when I saw her.  She just nodded at a couple questions and closed her eyes.  I let her rest.  As I stood next to her bed, I said a little prayer.

The last few years have been a little tough on my family.  It started with the death of my brother in 2014.  He was a terrible diabetic who had a stroke a few years before he passed.  Then my sister, Sally, came down with lymphoma of the brain the following year.  She died at the end of the summer in 2015.  Of course, last month, my father died.  He was 90 years old, so this wasn't really a shock.  He lived a good, long life.  Now, my sister, Rose, is in the hospital.  She's going to get better, is already getting better.

If I were a superstitious person, I would be like ragged Elijah right now, wandering through my life, muttering about curses or omens.  Maybe dressing in dark clothes, wagging my finger in people's faces, predicting the End Times.  Some of my siblings seem to blame God for everything that's happened.  Like we're living under some family curse.  They don't go to church anymore, except for funerals or weddings.  Maybe at Christmas, too.

I can't live like that.  I'm not a prophet or character in Moby-Dick.  I'm a husband, father, son, and sibling who writes poetry.  While I try to make sense of senseless circumstances, I've learned not to expect everything that happens to me to have meaning.  That's a human instinct--to see life as the plot of a grand novel, where every detail is a piece in the puzzle of the narrative.  No, I will leave meaning to the Divine Power of the universe.

Today, I will visit my sister.  This afternoon, I will go to church, say some more prayers for her and my family.  Tonight, I may sit down and try to write a new poem (that's the closest I come to searching for the cosmic answers of life).  In the middle of all that, I'm hoping for some pizza.

Nothing prophetic in all of that.  Maybe poetic.

Saint Marty is thankful today for sunshine and his son, sitting next to him at McDonald's.  Hallelujah.


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